My Testimony

Before college I couldn’t wait to go. At home, at a certain time in High School my dad would yell at me. One time I felt God was there and he stopped my dad from doing something to me. I couldn’t wait to live somewhere else and not be home. I applied to colleges and got into Stony Brook University and decided to go there.

After High School at the end of the summer I moved into college and was ready to dorm there. I went to parties the first two nights and thought that was what I should do on the weekends in college. I also thought I should smoke weed. The third night I had nothing to do at first and I wanted to do something. Then, my roommate came and asked me to smoke with her and some guys. I went and smoked and I had my first experience that God gave me so I could find out the truth.

After smoking I had a panic attack and I felt like I was going to die. I thought about things that could go wrong or happen and I was scared. The weed made me think these thoughts of what could happen like dying or getting in trouble. I wanted to die from how scary the panic attack was. Then, I thought of my family and didn’t let myself die.

When we got to a certain place on campus I looked around and it looked like a kaleidoscope. It looked like there was no way out and we were walking around forever. I had to close my eyes but eventually when I opened them I saw my dorm.

We went inside and went to bed and I was still panicking. I felt like I could die. I decided to pray to God and when I prayed I felt him come. I asked him to get me out of the panic attack and he said, “I can’t help you because you decided to smoke.” I knew I made the decision to smoke earlier so he couldn’t help me. I even said I would never smoke again if he could get me out of it, but I knew inside I would. Eventually, I fell asleep and I woke up totally fine.

Part 5 will come soon.